Okay so I decided to deactivate my Facebook...Yet AGAIN!

Some people might ask why don't I just delete it, rather than deactivating it & then reactivating it, over and over. The simple answer is, I don't want to get rid of all the memories. A break yes, but to delete? Facebook is my only social media page that has been active since before I first went to Japan, before I got my first wisdom tooth pulled & before my adult life had begun. I don't want to get rid of the silly updates, the photos that are hidden and buried away, the comments between people I used to be really close to but now have no idea where they are in the world.



I mean I used to have Xanga but unfortunately that was shut down without my consent.

I feel like the me back then was a completely different person. I think if the two of us met, my old me would laugh at how conservative & non threatening the new me was & the me now would blush and shake my head at the me back then. Granted there was a time when old me's life was similar to my life now but she didn't know what I knew today. So she got involved with some bad people who not only did bad things but bad things to her. She was easily influenced.


That's part of the reason why I want to keep my blog. When I do one day have children & If I happen to get a girl, I want to remember the old me so I could possibly advise him or her if they happen to experience similar hardships. There are so many pressures out there & I know what it was like....It actually saddens me to think of my future offspring going through anything like what I had experienced. I will try my best to teach them what I know but I will let my kids live & make their own mistakes.

I actually had a dream last night that I had a baby girl. She was so fragile, her head was big but her neck was so small. She was a beautiful newborn & I just wanted to keep her alive and healthy. I never experienced such protection for someone as I did my baby in the dream. So that could be why I decided to talk about all of this today.



But I should stop, today is going to be busy! Answering emails, cleaning the cat litter, going to the salvation army to drop off blankets and a bed frame, making my appointment, etc etc.

I was thinking about uploading videos but my camera is kinda acting crazy. My brother is shipping back my Macbook Air so as soon as it arrives, I should be making more videos! I could always use my iPad as well...eh. lol

You all have a blessed and highly favored day!!!