Grandma Arina
I never thought this day would come. I thought about it but I never really believed that my grandmother would leave this world. She was incredibly strong, intelligent, beautiful, passionate & a fierce loving person. The fact that she was all these things lead me to believe she would live forever. Don't get me wrong, she lived an amazing & full life...Having seen all that she saw at 89 years old.

She lives in New York & I just so happened to be here during the time of her passing. You see she had a stroke not too long ago..& she had to be hospitalized for a while. So last time I was in New York which was about a month & half ago I went to go visit her at the hospital where she was staying. The time that I had to leave, I promised her I would come back to visit her very soon. I just got back to New York on Wednesday & I actually got to go to her house. When we got there, I went inside to see her. Even though she probably couldn't comprehend that I was standing next to her bed, I still rubbed her head & told her I was back & that I kept my promise. Literally a few hours after I left, she passed away.

You cannot believe how happy I am that I got to see her one last time. I loved her so much & I wish I could have seen her much more during the times when she was healthy. I don't even think it fully hit me yet. I found out around 9:50 a.m when I woke up. I checked my phone and noticed I had many missed calls from different family members. At first I thought I was in trouble or that something probably happened to someone else. I didn't expect to hear that news at all.
I love her so much & I know as cliche as it sounds, she's with my grandpa in a much better place. God protect her soul.

As I'm typing this, I'm literally fighting back tears. Plans will be changed & canceled since family will be coming into town, also because I'll be staying in New York for much longer than I expected but it's worth it.

I just can't believe she's gone. I love her sooo much. It pains me to know that she won't be here anymore. She won't be calling my brothers phone asking to speak with my mom instead of just calling her phone, she won't be fighting with me over little silly things, I won't be hearing anymore of her wise council, I won't be pushed or persuaded to attend Tuskegee University, she won't be hanging up anymore pictures of recent family photos. She's gone & that's why it breaks my heart.

I need to celebrate her long, fulfilling life. & hold even closer to the ones I love that are still living.


I love so you much grandma. I love you so so much.